As I read the words in my new study-edition of the Book of Mormon
in traditional Mandarin Chinese, I enjoy the luxury I have long yearned for to
have the characters for each verse in one column, the phonetic spelling of
those characters (or “Romanization” or “pin-yin”) in the next column, and the familiar
English verse in the last so I can study all three side by side. This great blessing takes a great deal of
work to take advantage of, and after studying this book almost every day for
the last two or three months, and occasionally before that for another two, I
still haven’t ventured past the Testimony of the Three Witnesses. I have determined that, this time through, I
am not reading for speed (last time through I simply skipped every word I didn’t
already know) but for reading fluency, and eventually comprehension. I am determined to make it through each
section just reading the characters and recognizing every one by sight, without
checking the pin-yin, before I move past it and call it conquered.
There are several paragraphs between the Title Page and the Introduction
that I can now read through without checking, and I am finally enjoying the luxury,
which I never fully appreciated before going through this exercise, of reading
every word in a sentence without stopping, freeing me to put the ideas together
into one coherent thought. Language
truly is a marvelous thing!
The question that has entered my mind several times through the
last few months, and been excused largely without an answer about as many
times, is “Does it count as scripture study if I can understand so little of
what I am reading?” One paragraph could
take me five minutes to muddle through, leaving me too tired to attempt
another. So tired, that I actually fell
asleep when I’ve tried it. Does tripping
over one paragraph of words I can hardly string together in a coherent thought
count as study of the Book of Mormon?
Today, I learned why the answer is a resounding “Yes.”
As I was reviewing a few verses I still struggled a little with, in
preparation for turning the page on them permanently and moving forward in my
quest to read every character in the Book of Mormon in Mandarin, I enjoyed the
flow of the words together in sentences I could now comprehend and
appreciate. I had worked hard on this,
and the progress, while slow, had been exciting because my skills improved each
time. I felt the Spirit whisper to my
heart words I had spoken to my son in recent days and I realized that I was
keeping Heavenly Father’s commandment to “be obedient.”
“Things always go better when you are obedient,” I tell my son, “even
when you don’t know why. I know it’s
hard sometimes, but when you’re obedient, you will always be happier.”
I knew this because my mother had taught me, “I’m not going to tell
you why, because you’re just going to argue with me. You obey first and then if you still want to
know why, maybe I’ll tell you.” It makes
me smile to remember myself, short and pompous, trying to process those words
as I pouted and humphed out of the room, but it is a true principle.
God tells us what we need to do to be happy, and He rarely tells us
why upfront. But when we obey, we often
figure that part out for ourselves.
So the Spirit taught me this morning that we study the scriptures
to be obedient. The other blessings that
come through that process are but blessings He already wanted to give to
us. We show we are ready to receive these
blessings by keeping His commandments. So,
while I have many great, enduring, and even life-changing lessons during my
scripture study, they weren’t taught to me by the words on the page. Rather, they were taught to me by the Spirit I
had put myself in the right place to hear by consistent obedience.
What a simple and profound lesson! It makes me think of the oft repeated words of the Savior during his mortal ministry. "I came to do the will of my Father" and "If ye love me, keep my commandments." That pretty much covers everything. If it's a commandment, we keep it. If it's the will of the Father, we do it."
ReplyDeleteGreat insight, Ashley. Thank you for sharing it.
Love,
MOM <3
I really admire your commitment to maintaining your language skills, too! After so many days of study and prayer in Chinese as a missionary, I really do consider it to be my "spiritual language." The Lord gave you a great blessing in the ability to learn the language (reading it, too boot!), and some day, I believe He will call upon you to account for it (read: use it again), just like the parable of the talents. Those like you who have made an effort to maintain their language skills--and, more importantly, to teach the gospel in their language--will be blessed with opportunities that others sold for a proverbial mess of pottage.
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